Poem of the Month

Never On Time

I'm never on time
I'm always late
Never make it
Never say
Always want
Always a day late
Nothing can save me now
It's time that won't wait
I'll always have heaven in my eyes
I will not be late because I heard heaven
Just might not wait

The Gym

Ahh…..the gym almost did me in today. I guess lying around the house eating every ten minutes is not exactly a special k challenge. My favorite thing to do was cardio. I now find cardio doing me.

I was on my favorite machine for less than ten minutes, but one look at me you would have guessed ten hours. To top my first trip back after 5 months off I went with one of my dearest friends who I believe is secretly a personal trainer. She tried to take me out I believe with all my heart.

The thread mill which should have been an easy one for me to nail turned out to be a death trap waiting. My dear friend you know the personal trainer wannabe. Decides I wasn’t moving to her beat of the drum and sped me up 10 times what I’m use to. She had me climbing mountains, doing Olympic races and all to think she wasn’t even getting paid. I really thought it was the end and then the cool down came I could taste the relief I was sweating for the relief. I thought to soon because I suddenly seen a hand reach over and turn my cool down into a fast warm up that lasted far too long for my legs.

In the end my trip to the gym was the end of a fat vacation I was happily enjoying. No more lying around the house stuffing my face. Yes. Yes those days are over I’m back in cardio heaven. The 100 plus calories I burned off got me wanting to see it to the end and yes I will soon see you again gym.

Poem of the Month

I Didn't Realize

I have been looking for you for some time
How could I have missed you just inches away from my face
Breathing in taking air in my space
You're all I use to talk about
Not knowing it was you I was talking about
You have been here with me through everything never falling to your knees
Always being the glue to hold me together
Now that I have you I will never let you go
I will be there for all your needs
The wind have blown in opposite directions just in the end to have us brought together
Flying high above the sky living life to its fullest me and you forever together

History Was Made on 11/04/08

Well I can't even explain my emotion on the events of last night. Not only was America celebrating, but the whole world seem to have been affected by this historical election. We have had a record high for voting for this election. I guess people finally had enough of our current situation and needed a change. Change we got! You can see the emotion spread across the world, it's nothing like victory. I am so happy that I was able to witness this milestone in history. I mean our first African American President come on now even the ones that did not vote for the man should give him a well deserved clap and pat on the back. The young black kids of America really can now believe that they can become anything not just doctors or lawyers, but also president of the United States. My emotions are still running wild and I still have tears of joy in my heart for the events of last night. I can only think that we as Americans have been through the downs of the last past eight years only to end up on top. With Barack Obama as president we will over come and get back on top where the United States belong. Now our part as Americans should be patience, because our issues can not be fixed overnight, but they will be fixed. Because we have Barack Obama a president we can count on.

You Look Your Age

Hey lets do this. The next time someone say you don't look your age. Say really and what age do I look like exactly? Seriously what is looking your age. I mean how do 20, 30, 40 look anyway? I think everybody look their age in their own way.

When a person tells us their age we judge. We think either wow they look good for their age or wow they must have had a hard life. For the most part we're shocked either way. In that rarity you find those few that when they say their age you think aw.. I thought so, you look about 30. Then that brings out the I actually look like I've been on this earth for 30 years, damn! When someone puts it like that you really want to say my bad I didn't see it that way.

It may come as a surprise to some, but a 20,30,40 year old can look like they were born on the same day. I know right. I can be 40 and someone say really, you don't look a day over 25. Yes! Score! Then I can be 27 and someone already pre-guessed 32. After my age is revealed they try to clean it up and say you just look mature for your age. Yeah thanks for sending me running to the mirror.

So the next time someone say wow you don't look that old or wow I thought you was older than that! Look at them and say I do look my age because I am my age!

It's going down

I woke up. I got dressed. I got in my car. I rode down the street. I almost crashed my car. You see I couldn't believe my eyes. I never thought I would see the day it was in the 2's again. Gas is 2 dollars and some change. I don't know what or how it happen but I'm happy it did. Instead of rushing to the pumps to fill up before the price goes up. I'm temped to wait until the next day to see how low it will go. Maybe one day the 1's will enter our lives again. Wishful thinking on my part. It's good to see you again 2s!

Poem of the Month

Describe Me

Hey can you describe me
Can you tell me how I am
Can you see through my skin
What would you say
Would you say I have nappy hair with curls at the end
Would you say I have a little extra weight in various places that I could stand to lose
Would you say I have a little extra money to spend when I have the blues
Would you judge me before I even spoke a word
Write me off as well understood and rude or would you stop and talk to me
Ask me questions to find out what's real or fake
What I'm all about
You know the way I talk
Would you find out the truth and ask yourself oh how true can it be is she lying to me
Or will you walk away feeling like you was mistreated because you heard brutal honesty
Ask me and you will receive nothing but the truth so help me god I know this is true
So I ask you again how would you describe me
Would you say I'm fair and sweet
Or would you say with a friend like her who needs enemies
I just wanted to know how would you describe me

Be Heard!!

If you don't vote no one will here you. Even If you scream you will go unheard. If you think that no one listens to you now, oh boy just wait until you make the wrong decision and don't vote. Usually I don't tell people how to think or what to do, but in this case it affects me and my people and you too. So I'm gonna have to ask you to vote. Help save us from great depression number two. Make a difference, have a voice, speak loud and clear and pass it on to those that are listening even to the ones that are not. Our life as we know it depends on you. Yes it's that serious. Care about yourself and the people around you have a voice and vote.

We need change cause we can't afford more of the same!!!

Don't Break the Glass

Did someone break a mirror in the White House and just brushed the shattered pieces underneath the couch? They must have, but our seven years is up, we have served our time. So please let's be careful not to shatter another looking glass and leave our country in pieces.

Lights Out!

For all of my fellow Jacksonville, Fl residents. Lets talk a little bit about our electricity company we like to call good ole JEA. It's amazing to me as big as Jacksonville is we have only one electric company. Wow it's crazy i know. Anyways good ole, good ole JEA is what we call a monopoly it's all we got and it's something we need; can't really live without it. When you first get JEA you have to pay a deposit either 300 or 200 depends on where you live. If they apply it to your bill it's lump sum not split up. Amongst all the other deposits and fees you had to pay to move in, in the first place. Some how the bill is always due at the end of the month or the beginning either way around the same time rent is do. And if you think you can call and get a payment arrangement just forget it. It's not going to happen. It could be for several different reasons. To name a few( sorry can't make a payment arrangemanet the first six months or sorry can't make a payment arrangement on pass due balances). So basically pay or light candles and there is no getting a month behind. You're shut off when the next bill rolls around (now where did I put my flash light). Be aware when you are late or can't pay your bill at all and additional deposit is added to your account. Yeah! Yeah! I know what you're thinking, if I can't even pay my regular bill what make you think i can pay a deposit? Right! I know we can't win for losing. Then they decided to increase there rates. I guess gas is the blame here too. Now! Now! I'm not being fair their employees do need their bonuses. Let's give them a round of applause they must be taking the payments right and have the phrase no payment arrangement can be made sorry! Forgive me for thinking about our poor people that have to limit our light usage, hot water usage, air condition cause we can sweat, take cold shower's and read in the dark! Because they must receive their precious bonus. There is no trying to figure out how your bill jumped from $150 to $200, because looking at your JEA bill is not like looking at your cell phone bill, now way to tell your usage from that bill. There is no threaten to leave and go some place else; let me remind you it's a monopoly. There is no one else. All we got is good ole good ole JEA. So get your check or cash ready and go stand in line (no debit or credit card can be used) and pay your bill. Because as big a city as we are JEA is our one and only electricity provider.

It takes just 8 weeks!!

In 8 weeks you too can become homeless! Not that you would want to. Neither do I but seems like i'm headed that way. Yes I am headed to homeless land and it only took 8 short weeks. I don't know if you want to call it luck not unless you put bad in front of it. See I lost my job for the for the 3rd time in less than a year. Filed for what they call emergency unemployment over 2 months ago. No money no anything just people telling me a decision have not yet been made and they have had over 200,000 claims, I guess my name falls in that pile. In the mean time I have been living with out money pretty much that whole time. My so called roommate a friend of mine that I known for about 15 yrs moved out and left me with nothing. Sometimes when you have nothing you are sure to get something and in my case that something turn out to be eviction notice, phone off, no money, no food, and then darkness would soon fall my way. So my something really left me with nothing. It's hard looking for a job with no money, no gas and no bus fare. And the government is talking about a $700 billion bailout. I'm just looking for the $1700 in unemployment to come my way so I can know where I will lay my head the next day. Does it really take 8 weeks to decide on a yes or no considering I have been in the system for almost a year. And to think they call this emergency unemployment, if 911 react time was like this would one could just walk to the hospital with bullet wounds and all. On top of all this someone tried to steal my car, i guess it's time to brush of the old boots and to get to walking.

I'm Just Living it